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Epiphanies

I just wanted to note down that things are changing for me now.. So much change.. but I am sad and happy at the same time. Sad to have to accept that the change will change soooo much relationships around me.. Happy because I need this change.. and welcome it. It means I move forward in life and achieve what I never dreamed of achieving.

I had been praying a lot for this for a long long time. The angels and saints works are finally obvious to me. Thank you and Thank you God. My path is clear and I know it will only be up from here. However I would like to take a pause to say goodbye to what I knew, to say sorry that I am changing to people I know who will be affected. I always loved you all, I will always love you all, however I can not promise I will be the same person after this journey.

Does this experience strike a note? I am sure it has happen to many. Hopefully this new live is ready for a crazier, more creative, funnier and happier Rogue. I am what I am, worked hard at it. I never let myself down. I never disappointed myself. I have achieved all my ambitions and more. I am yet to achieve the ultimate impossible thing to do for a little girl from Kampung. :) go for a walk on the moon.

Comments

Rob said…
Noooo!!!!
You've finally gone blonde?!?

Take care of yourself
April 6, 2010 at 4:01 PM
Dr. Rachel Mansa said…
yeah my blonde ambition.. lol...

always taking care of myself..

see u soon.. hugs..
April 6, 2010 at 4:29 PM
Belle Deon said…
Gratz!! You will make one hell of a butterfly. Change is inevitable ..
April 10, 2010 at 4:12 PM
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