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Metamorphosis

Today is two weeks.. Two weeks of what? I let you guess.

It is just sufficient to state that. I never thought I would have to do this. Make such changes in my life and my children's life. I have no choice.

In my mind's eye, I never imagined this picture. How can I live?...

I tell you what. I do it day to day, week by week, fortnightly by forthnightly.... soon it will be year by year and decades by decades.. By that time, I probably be glad I did this.

Pain and time. Time helps heal all pain. I hope that is true. The pain is unimaginable. The pain is great. I pray for peace and calmness in my soul, Joy and Happiness for my kids.

I can do this... I can take this role. I can metamorph into this... just give me time... I have to picture this clear in my head. I have to make this picture strong that I succeed and I triumph over adversity.

God give me the strength to change what I can change, give me patience, guidance, protection and love.

Comments

Linachu said…
U can dear..one step at a time, u can do it
June 11, 2009 at 4:59 PM
mai said…
u are way stronger and smarter than u think u are, i see that in u. take k. :)
June 16, 2009 at 12:51 PM
Misako said…
rach, whatever it is, take care ya..
June 18, 2009 at 10:19 PM
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