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Feeling like jello

It is a tender morning. Today is week 3 of my survival count-up. I was okay in the pass few days. What happened this morning? I do not know. I just feel very tender, panicky, scared, worried and sad. All these emotions for me and my children.

I pray to God for strength and calmness.

I need to release this control I have over this issue. I need to surrender to God, his Angels and Saints. They are all around me and they remind me so often that they appreciate my struggle and I need to let them help.

I need to appreciate myself. I have done some wrong things and some right things. But I can not be harsh on myself for the wrong things I do. I need to focus on the right things. I am on the right path. I want to have faith.

I am progressing steadily. I am moving forward. My proposal and my side income projects are there and I am working towards them.

I need to stop worrying. Worrying is like a magnet for negative things to happen to me and my family. I need to focus on the positives in my life.

3 weeks, I have done well.

I need to sing that "I feel pretty" song again. :)

Comments

Zan said…
You are one STRONG lady, Rach! *hugs*
June 17, 2009 at 10:49 PM
Anonymous said…
*Squeeeeeezeeeeeeeeeeee* Thats a big Hug from me honey, u r too cool for words, Go on ma son! xoxo
June 23, 2009 at 6:18 AM
Rob said…
Don't worry - I'll join in :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L7BQRGXFLJs
July 8, 2009 at 6:52 PM
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