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To be or not to be

Don't you hate it when you are undecided about something?

For example, your shopping time is half an hour before the flight leaves and you have to choose between two beautiful bags at the airport.

Or you want to eat but you can not choose between two of your favourite dishes. This had happen to me a lot recently. My taste preferences had changed since I got pregnant. Hmmm.. it makes choosing what to eat a hell of a feat. Sometimes it makes me wish I do not have to eat.

Another huge problem I have nowadays is that I can not seem to decide on the type of questions to set my students. This really makes me frustrated. I think the best way to set exam questions are to pitch it at a level where most students would be able to score average, a few to score lower end grades, God-forbid any failures and a good number of A's. Perfecto. I would call my last year's paper something like that. So why suddenly I become a Duh uh.. dunno how to set questions. Feel soo dumb and stupid sometimes.

What am I to do. I think I better go back to just choosing the questions.

But before that. My son's nails need to be clipped at least once a week. Forgetting this would result in scratches on my skin. He is cute but it is getting more difficult to keep him still while I give him a manicure. And my fear is that he will have ugly nails like me. His dad has such nice nails. Why can't he get nice nails like his Dad. To top it off he bites his nails just like his Mama. Oh Dear!

Okay now I should go back to work

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