“Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.”
― Confucius
This quote makes me smile. In my teenage years, I sought to understand what it meant. I thought I had to do what other people wanted me to do. Or what other people thought suited them. So I modeled myself after other people. As years passed by I realized that learning about yourself is the key to knowing what you love. Seeing yourself in other people's eyes and admitting all the flaws as much as appreciating all the positives about yourself really helps you move closer to that direction. I choose to say direction not point because life is a journey.
Some people say I am lucky and born in the right stars. But how do you explain the hardships that I walked through in life. Something that no one could ever imagine. The choices that we make when the challenges come our way, make the BIG differences in our life. To walk in the path I took, it is not for the faint hearted. Sometimes you go through days, months or even years in darkness. But for those feeling that there is no hope. I would say.. have a vision.. a healthy more positive vision of where you can be and where you deserve to be because you are precious. Yup even with your flaws.. you are precious to this world we live in. For I believe everyone born into this world has a purpose to fulfill. The lost of one entity would affect millions around. The fulfillment of a destiny changes worlds and aeons..
I have been through a lot these pass decades.. and I just found out that the slug and hardwork I had put into my very first high impact peer reviewed indexed jounal had been cited 14 times.. I pat myself on the back. But to get that paper out, I had to read, write, edit, research for years.. hahahah I remember when I first started writing it. My supervisor Jonathan.. you can see him on the main page in his robes.. :) he is like a Father to me.. told me I should write a paper for him to go to a conference in Montreal. I could have gone with him if I did not bloody go to Thailand for an earlier conference.. DANG! hahaha but I wrote it anyway.. he took my presentation and paper.. and returned them to me for corrections. This was repeated for a zillion times until I could vomit. Still I did it. He finally said it was good enough for the conference.. I was soo bad at writing that I had to go through that.. :( Then I finished my Permanent Head Damage Journey.. hahahah and returned home to have a baby..
Guess what.. Jonathan emails me and says you need to do more editing.. Imagine my expression.. OH NO NOT AGAIN! was more like it.. and again it went to and fro from him to me for more editing.. this time I had to type it while breastfeeding my Kiddo, or while stealing time when my Kiddo slept, or not resting even when I was on my confinement period... hey.. the body is not exposed to the elements... just the mind is being worked up.. I WAS COMPLAINING.. I just wanted to say NO!.. I had enough.. but just when I thought I was ready to tell my really dear Supervisor.. He said it is ready.. a few months later in 2007 it was an article in press... PHEW!... did I want to write any more papers after that.. NOOOOOOOO.. traumatised.. yes.. feeling very low about myself? yes.. I was not very good because I had to do soooo much editing.. sigh!
I did not dare write a single paper after that.. hahahah really it scared the shits out of me.. the experience.. in 2007 the impact factor for Powder Tech was below 1.. dejected yes.. all that work for a low impact factor journal.. but in 2008 my paper was published and was cited 5 times in the first year it was out.. imagine my SURPRISE.. I almost fell out of my chair.. and to add to my surprise.. the impact factor was 1.5. WOW!... WOW!! and WOW!! again and again.. And then today.. four years later after it was published, I have 14 citations.. by people I don't even know.. imagine the reach of the information I had produced.. just imagine that for a while.. Thank you Jonathan for guiding me, pushing me and believing in me.. Thank you for telling me to stop doing for a while and to THINK!..
Now I am on a roll.. I have presented 3 conference papers last year.. I am polishing two papers from that three. I have about another 10 in my paper bank waiting to be written and about 3 or four from my thesis. I do not think I can repeat what I had achieved because I do not have Jonathan pushing me for further corrections and further corrections anymore.. but I will try and learn from that experience and try to be writing again... write good journal papers..
And this to my friend Margreet.. you once told me the type of job that suits me well with the attitude, personality and character I have was to be in academia.. Thank you.. it does suit me well.. I love knowledge.. I love writing... I love talking.. I love telling stories... I love studying things.. I love thinking.. it is all and everything that I love.. I have found my passion in life..
If you are interested to have a look at this paper it can be found via this link
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0032591007000678
erm p/s just to be obnoxious.. when I got the link above.. I saw this "Cited by in Scopus (17)"
hahahah elated?.. I am overwhelmed.. yesterday it was 14 and today add another 3.. I really need to write my subsequent papers from my thesis.. I have a responsibility to disseminate what knowledge I hold.. (do you see that person in the corner saying.. perasan.. hahaha yes I am soo very perasan).
Good nite everyone.. I wanted to write the paper but ended up writing this blog because I forgot my external hardrive in the office.. :) wish me luck for the future.. lotsa love Doc Rogue
― Confucius
This quote makes me smile. In my teenage years, I sought to understand what it meant. I thought I had to do what other people wanted me to do. Or what other people thought suited them. So I modeled myself after other people. As years passed by I realized that learning about yourself is the key to knowing what you love. Seeing yourself in other people's eyes and admitting all the flaws as much as appreciating all the positives about yourself really helps you move closer to that direction. I choose to say direction not point because life is a journey.
Some people say I am lucky and born in the right stars. But how do you explain the hardships that I walked through in life. Something that no one could ever imagine. The choices that we make when the challenges come our way, make the BIG differences in our life. To walk in the path I took, it is not for the faint hearted. Sometimes you go through days, months or even years in darkness. But for those feeling that there is no hope. I would say.. have a vision.. a healthy more positive vision of where you can be and where you deserve to be because you are precious. Yup even with your flaws.. you are precious to this world we live in. For I believe everyone born into this world has a purpose to fulfill. The lost of one entity would affect millions around. The fulfillment of a destiny changes worlds and aeons..
I have been through a lot these pass decades.. and I just found out that the slug and hardwork I had put into my very first high impact peer reviewed indexed jounal had been cited 14 times.. I pat myself on the back. But to get that paper out, I had to read, write, edit, research for years.. hahahah I remember when I first started writing it. My supervisor Jonathan.. you can see him on the main page in his robes.. :) he is like a Father to me.. told me I should write a paper for him to go to a conference in Montreal. I could have gone with him if I did not bloody go to Thailand for an earlier conference.. DANG! hahaha but I wrote it anyway.. he took my presentation and paper.. and returned them to me for corrections. This was repeated for a zillion times until I could vomit. Still I did it. He finally said it was good enough for the conference.. I was soo bad at writing that I had to go through that.. :( Then I finished my Permanent Head Damage Journey.. hahahah and returned home to have a baby..
Guess what.. Jonathan emails me and says you need to do more editing.. Imagine my expression.. OH NO NOT AGAIN! was more like it.. and again it went to and fro from him to me for more editing.. this time I had to type it while breastfeeding my Kiddo, or while stealing time when my Kiddo slept, or not resting even when I was on my confinement period... hey.. the body is not exposed to the elements... just the mind is being worked up.. I WAS COMPLAINING.. I just wanted to say NO!.. I had enough.. but just when I thought I was ready to tell my really dear Supervisor.. He said it is ready.. a few months later in 2007 it was an article in press... PHEW!... did I want to write any more papers after that.. NOOOOOOOO.. traumatised.. yes.. feeling very low about myself? yes.. I was not very good because I had to do soooo much editing.. sigh!
I did not dare write a single paper after that.. hahahah really it scared the shits out of me.. the experience.. in 2007 the impact factor for Powder Tech was below 1.. dejected yes.. all that work for a low impact factor journal.. but in 2008 my paper was published and was cited 5 times in the first year it was out.. imagine my SURPRISE.. I almost fell out of my chair.. and to add to my surprise.. the impact factor was 1.5. WOW!... WOW!! and WOW!! again and again.. And then today.. four years later after it was published, I have 14 citations.. by people I don't even know.. imagine the reach of the information I had produced.. just imagine that for a while.. Thank you Jonathan for guiding me, pushing me and believing in me.. Thank you for telling me to stop doing for a while and to THINK!..
Now I am on a roll.. I have presented 3 conference papers last year.. I am polishing two papers from that three. I have about another 10 in my paper bank waiting to be written and about 3 or four from my thesis. I do not think I can repeat what I had achieved because I do not have Jonathan pushing me for further corrections and further corrections anymore.. but I will try and learn from that experience and try to be writing again... write good journal papers..
And this to my friend Margreet.. you once told me the type of job that suits me well with the attitude, personality and character I have was to be in academia.. Thank you.. it does suit me well.. I love knowledge.. I love writing... I love talking.. I love telling stories... I love studying things.. I love thinking.. it is all and everything that I love.. I have found my passion in life..
If you are interested to have a look at this paper it can be found via this link
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0032591007000678
erm p/s just to be obnoxious.. when I got the link above.. I saw this "Cited by in Scopus (17)"
hahahah elated?.. I am overwhelmed.. yesterday it was 14 and today add another 3.. I really need to write my subsequent papers from my thesis.. I have a responsibility to disseminate what knowledge I hold.. (do you see that person in the corner saying.. perasan.. hahaha yes I am soo very perasan).
Good nite everyone.. I wanted to write the paper but ended up writing this blog because I forgot my external hardrive in the office.. :) wish me luck for the future.. lotsa love Doc Rogue
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