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Bah HumBug?

Tis the season so be jolly...

Goes the song.. but usually people end up getting depress and sad about this season. I thought being in a warm country would chase those blues away.. I remember being in England and hating the cold.. the winter.. the gray skies.. ugh.. Blaming everything on the weather.. hahahah

But I find myself struggling to smile and cheer myself up.. why? I do not know.. Looking around I think almost everyone goes through this. Again I ask why?

Do we all expect the season to suddenly cheer us?
Do we expect someone special to remember us but end up being disappointed?
Do we expect everyone to be nicer?
Did Ebenezer Scrooge have the right attitude towards Christmas?

Hmmm sad that expectations gets the better of us. Even when we try to remind ourselves not to expect too much.. it gets us.. I was with my sisters and parents.. and all of them had this extra energy and talking very very loudly.. that is normal for them.. hahaha but I can feel the expectations..

My depression did subside tho.. due to a little help from a good friend.. and also seeing my family.. warms my heart that they are dependable in being themselves.. haaha love them..

Lower expectations and surprises.. that is what subsided the depressing.. Sigh.. Thank you Lord for the people who love me..

Comments

Gallivanter said…
I think we all cling on to any sign that that showcases the slightest hint of joy, in this case, Christmas.

I never had expectations for Xmas, but I always contribute towards making it a joyful one. We can only do what we can. ;-)
December 7, 2009 at 11:07 AM
Anonymous said…
Give yrself a gift u've always wanted and hoped someone else wld get u: go buy those diamond earrings, that snazzy iphone, that spa indulgence. Make it fr Rachel to Rachel.
It does wonders:-)
December 9, 2009 at 11:07 AM
mjm said…
Christmas rings a bell... So true for many. Rachel dear, it's all right to falter and feel down sometimes. Although Christmas is gone even before it came, remember always that by speaking up and standing up for truth to nurse a broken heart and having the courage to liberate one's inner voice is the ultimate Christmas gift in itself.

Here's my heart's wish for you for the coming year! "To the beginning of a new beautifull life. May it be as beautiful as the lovely lotus flower which is able to blossom gracefully despite the murky waters!"
December 15, 2009 at 5:04 PM
Rob said…
Gray skies? Bah humbug! We might even have snow in Birmingham this weekend! Woohoo!

It's a common feeling - we think we should be happy at Christmas so if you're not it only highlights the fact. Still, a new year (a new decade) is around the corner - a time to turn a new leaf perhaps?

Have a good birthday, you rogue.
December 17, 2009 at 8:31 AM
Dr. Rachel Mansa said…
Thanks guys.. I survived Christmas.. hahahaha and feeling more upbeat.. i guess I just needed a long break from work.. I must plan to have a holiday every three months now.. just so i keep a sane head.. hahah
January 3, 2010 at 11:35 PM
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