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Another Waiting Game.

Today is the 9th of July, 2008. I am about a month away from delivering my second son. :) I really can not wait.

My first born was soo much easier to carry. This one is really tiring me and exhausting me. Sigh... I am not complaining but I do feel there is a large difference between these two pregnancies. Maybe my youngest son will give me a lot of sleepless nights, maybe he will not be as big as first one. But I promise I will love him equally.

I have been trying to tell My Kiddo that his Li'l Bro is coming soon. I showed him the scanned photo of his bro's feet and hands. Guess what My Kiddo did after he stared at the scan. He gave a kiss to my huge tummy and gave me a smile. Oh it was a sweet sweet sweet moment.

I wonder how hard it will be to keep My Kiddo from hitting his Li'l Bro out of jealousy. I expect him to be jealous, to be displaced and to feel sad. Yet, I hope most of all that he will see how precious and in need his Li'l Brother will be and to want to try his bestest best to be a good older brother. Fingers are crossed. Wish me luck.

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Jessica said…
ok tu rac..don't worry...mcn leah and leevan juga..heehe. ada kita crita kan...i guess leah was jealous 4 the 1st 2 mths then after tidak sudah..

c lovinon is loving..sure he will sayang2 his lil bro so much....siok but panat sajalah...heehe

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